Monday, February 20, 2012

Okay...as I have always done, I started this year out "On fire" and then got nervous about being a failure and ran from this blog like it was on fire.  I really don't know what I expect--or even--want from this experience.  But, here I am again.  I've left my emotional security blanket behind and I'm struggling not to look back as I press on once more...




The Voice of Truth
"Oh, What I would do to have...the kind of strength it takes to stand before a giant
With just a sling and a stone. 
Surrounded by the sound of a thousand warriors
Shaking in their armor...wishing they'd have had the strength to stand.
But the giant's calling out my name and he laughs at me...Reminding me of all the times 
I've tried before and failed. 
The giant keeps on telling me time and time again, 
'Boy you'll never win!  You'll never win!'
But the voice of truth tells me a different story
And the voice of truth says 'Do not be afraid!'
And the voice of truth says 'This is for my glory'
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose and listen and believe The Voice of Truth."


Thanks to Casting Crowns for the words of this song that are so moving and have meant so much to me.  I still remember the first time I put the CD in my car stereo and heard the words to this song.  It was at a moment in my life when things seemed hopeless and I had no where to turn for help...but to my Comforter and Savior.  These words brought me to tears and broke my heart for the doubts and fears that I had let creep into my life.  


My God is the creator of the universe!  Nothing is too big for HIM!  No matter the obstacles, the pain, the disappointments, the failures, the problems...HE is bigger!  No matter how alone or lost or how far down I have fallen...HE can and will reach down to me and lift me back up.  


I remember a night when I was home alone and feeling like the weight of the world was on my shoulders.  I had no one to turn to and no hope.  The dog forced me out of the house into the chilly night air where I suddenly began to sob uncontrollably.  I'm too much of a control freak to allow that sort of emotional display to go on for long...so I drew a deep breath and tried to gain some control of my pathetic self-pity.  As I raised my head up, breathed in the refreshing chill breeze and wiped the tears from my face I gazed up at the night sky.  It was clear and bright--filled with stars.  A softer wind caressed my face and in my heart I heard a voice, "I made all of these and yet in all the universe--you are important to me.  I know the number of hairs on your head and I created You."  


Now, don't think I'm crazy.  Those words may not even be the exact words that I heard.  The point is God reached down and reminded me of something that I knew in my heart...that was forgotten.  His Spirit gave me a peace and a comfort that I had not allowed myself to feel for a long time.  In my control-freak efforts to handle all the problems in my life, I had become overwhelmed, discouraged and depressed.  With one small gentle breeze and a view into eternity, I was reminded of my place in this world and that my Father was the creator of it all...and that HE loved me enough to send His Son to allow me to spend eternity with Him.  


When all the noise of this world threatens to overwhelm and overtake me...I will choose to listen to the Voice of Truth.


4-6My dear children, you come from God and belong to God. You have already won a big victory over those false teachers, for the Spirit in you is far stronger than anything in the world. These people belong to the Christ-denying world. They talk the world's language and the world eats it up. But we come from God and belong to God. Anyone who knows God understands us and listens. The person who has nothing to do with God will, of course, not listen to us. This is another test for telling the Spirit of Truth from the spirit of deception.            1 John 4:4-6    The Message
My hope is that when you feel the weight of the world pressing you down...You will look up to The One who offers us our only Real Hope...The One who is The Voice Of Truth.